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  Roma ignores Barinov’s words. He dances back as Barinov charges bull-like right at me. Roma steps aside, and Barinov stops short just before crashing into the wall. Roma’s muscles are huge and glistening, pressing against his naked body. He doesn’t seem to notice he’s naked, doesn’t even see me lying on the bed. His dark blue eyes stare at Barinov’s with killer’s instinct. He’s a man absorbed in his craft, oblivious of his surroundings.

  Barinov ducks, feints with one hand, and throws a hook with the other. Roma doesn’t flinch at the feint. He dodges the hook, jumps aside, and then jabs Barinov in the face. It looks oddly soft, but that’s an illusion; it’s only Roma’s control which makes it look so. Barinov tumbles backward and blood pisses from his nose in a great shower. He totters on his feet and Roma jumps up and swings his arm in a massive arc, clotheslining Barinov in his fat neck. Barinov makes a choking sound and falls to his knees. Then Roma hops over him in one quick motion, reaches down and grabs his head, and twists once. A crack sounds. Barinov’s eyes go blank and he slides to the floor as though boneless.

  As soon as Barinov is dead, Roma steps over him and comes to me.

  “Hush,” he says, his voice softer than I’ve ever heard it.

  He reaches up and touches my forehead, sticky and hot with sweat.

  “You’re either winded or having a panic attack,” he tells me.

  My breathing gets quicker and quicker, my chest tighter. Everything is fuzzy, out of focus. Roma’s words barely reach me.

  He takes my hand, squeezes it. “Listen to me,” he says. “You need to listen to me.”

  I can’t. I can barely hear him. I stare at the wall, wishing the tightness in my chest would go.

  He lets go of my hand and grabs my face with his hands, directing my gaze to him. His eyes are hard and his body is taut with veins and muscles. Water drips down him in small beads. He watches me with solid eyes. “You need to steady your breathing,” he says, bringing his face close to mine. “Okay? Felicity. Listen. I’m going to count your breathing with you. Okay? When I say one, breathe in. Then hold it. When I say two, breathe out. Nod if you understand.”

  With an effort, I nod.

  He takes me through the breathing exercises. One . . . two . . . one . . . two . . .

  Slowly the tightness in my chest loosens. My breathing slows. The fuzziness becomes clear.

  “Okay,” I say. “Okay, I’m better. Thank you. God, thank you, Roma.”

  He nods shortly. Then he makes to let go of my face. I dart my hands up and catch his hands before he can withdraw them, press them closely into my skin. “Don’t,” I say. “Not yet.”

  He watches my face for a long moment. Something seems to change in him. His eyes are no longer so hard. The wave of blue relents and light shines through.

  “I couldn’t let him hurt you,” he says.

  We watch each other. And despite everything, the attraction is too strong.

  He leans in, and I lean in with him.

  We press our lips together, breathing in deep breaths of passion, nerves tingling around my mouth and down my neck. I kiss him like I’ve never kissed anybody before, completely without reservation, and then he leans back, a shocked expression on his face.

  “I have to protect you,” he says, as much to himself as to me.

  Chapter Nine

  Roma

  You stupid bastard, I think, taking Barinov under the armpits and dragging him through to the bathroom. A short-term solution, that’s all that can ever be. Sooner or later, somebody will notice Barinov’s absence. Perhaps one of his friends knew he was coming here; I’ll be questioned; his body will be found. I’ve just murdered an underworld high-roller. This was not part of the plan. The plan of playing our roles and lying low is void, now. I return to the bedroom, closing the door behind him. Last time I checked, the yacht was a half-mile from the coast. That’ll have to be close enough.

  Felicity stares at me when I walk back into the room. The kiss still lingers on my lips, a kiss which felt like nothing I had never experienced before. A hard man, I tell myself. Yes, that’s what I am. A hard man encased in ice that no woman can touch. But that’s bullshit and the kiss proves it. I didn’t just feel lust when we kissed—though there was plenty of that—but protectiveness, too. I felt like a rope was being tied around us the longer we kissed, binding us together, and the moment we stopped the rope was already too tight; we are inextricably bound together now.

  “What now?” Felicity says. I see a message in her bright green eyes: Thank you for moving him.

  “Now,” I sigh, “I need to ask you a question.”

  I’m still naked, but that doesn’t seem to matter. I see Felicity watching me and, despite everything, dirty thoughts whir around my mind. I shut them down. Now isn’t the time or the place. Any second, Barinov’s men could come crashing through that door. Or worse, Zherkov could get wind of the situation and send the entire yacht down on us. I’m good, but I reckon even a good killer would be overwhelmed by almost a hundred Russian gangsters.

  “A question?”

  “Yes.”

  It’s an unfair question, a hypocritical question, but circumstances are unfair and there’s little I can do to change them, now. Again, I curse the fat corpse in the next room. He couldn’t just keep his hands to himself, could he? I hear Mr. Black’s voice in my head, roaring: Why didn’t you just let him do it, you fool? He would’ve tired himself out and then you could’ve brought her back! Trauma? Protection? That’s not your job, Roma! Your job is to bring her back alive. That’s all. But I couldn’t let him hurt her, ever. I realize this with a thud in my chest. Felicity is under my protection now and nothing will change that.

  I go to her, kneel down, and look into her eyes. “Do you trust me?”

  She swallows and I see her eyes stray to my lips. “I do,” she says.

  “Then you need to do exactly as I say.”

  Chapter Ten

  Felicity

  Five minutes later, Roma and I are walking through the hallways of the boat. We’re not sneaking, though I feel like we should be. Roma said there was no point. The boat only has so many hallways and we’re bound to bump into someone. “And if they find him?” I asked.

  Roma just shrugged. “Then I fight, but let’s hope it doesn’t come to that.”

  Roma holds my hand and I wear nothing but lingerie. He says we’ll get clothes when we get to France. If we get to France. He asked me if I trust him and the truth is I do. Maybe that’s a mistake. I barely know this man, though I know him more than I understand. And he saved my life. The way I see it, that’s got to count for something.

  We reach the staircase at the end of the hallway when a man stumbles from one of the rooms. The door to his cabin swings behind him and I catch a glimpse of a woman around my age, knees drawn to her chest, staring blank-eyed at the wall. Spider’s legs move up my spine at the sight of her. That could’ve been me, easily. It’s not fair. Just because my father is an ambassador, I get Roma sent for me. Who’ll come for this woman? No one, I bet.

  But I can’t afford to think like that, no matter how much it hurts me. The door swings closed and the man wobbles toward us. White powder clings to his upper lip and he snorts repeatedly. He’s fat around the middle and wears a disheveled suit. When he sees Roma and me, he grins like a snake, all gums.

  “Ah, the lap dance pair!” he cries. “I hope you are enjoying the ship, yes? Where are you going?”

  “For a stroll,” Roma says. I’m impressed by how calm his voice is, ice, giving nothing away. He touches my shoulder. “Trying to teach this one some manners. Think a nighttime stroll above deck will do the trick.”

  The Russian tips his head back and laughs. “Yes, yes, I imagine it will.” And then he waddles down the hallway, in the opposite direction to us.

  Roma leads me up the stairs. We don’t encounter anybody else, but the noise of them is all around us. Screaming women and laughing men and clattering glass and one particularly
loud snoooooooooort as yet another man snorts yet another drug.

  We emerge onto the deck and stand at the railing. Roma strips off his clothes until he is down to his underwear. It is summer and the night is warm, but I have no delusions about the warmth of the water this far out.

  Roma faces me. “I’m going to ask you again—”

  “I trust you,” I say. I place my hand on his chest, secure and strong.

  “Okay.” He nods. “You’re fit. You should be okay. Just stick close to me.”

  With that, he grips the edge of the railing and launches himself over. There’s a splash.

  I look down into the blackness of the water.

  “Come on,” Roma calls up. “The water is bloody lovely.” His voice is grim.

  I grip the edge of the railing. I don’t think. I just jump.

  Chapter Eleven

  Roma

  The sun rises as we step onto the rocky beach, the stones cutting into my feet. I’m panting and salty water slides from my body. Felicity steps out after me, shaking water from her hair. She’s shivering, but her lips are not blue or cracked, and she doesn’t seem to be moving with any sluggishness. I go to her and take her by the hand, giving her what little warmth I can.

  “Now what?” she says, looking out over the French countryside.

  The beach extends for a quarter-mile before meeting a long, flat stretch of green, dotted here and there with stone-built cottages as far as the eye can see. In the distance, green hills rise. I spot the cottage about seven miles away, a hazy thing at this distance, only visible because of the flatness of the plains.

  “Now,” I tell her, “we walk. I know a place.”

  We walk down the beach, hand in hand, being careful not to step on any sharp stones. Felicity shakes her head again, water splashing me. Her ponytail, soaked, flips around and slaps her in the face. She giggles. It’s a beautiful sound, a sound so alien to the usual course of my life than I can’t help but smile. I’m in deep shit, make no mistake, but with Felicity’s hand in mine, the shit doesn’t seem so deep.

  Soon, we’re off the rocks and on grass. The day is hot and our skin dries quickly. I try to see us as we would look from far away, a half-naked man and woman walking through the grass under the stark rays of the sun. We must look like nudists, I decide, but nudists who haven’t got the balls to go the whole hog. Amateur nudists.

  After an hour of slow walking—she is fit, but I can tell Felicity is aching from the swim and lack of sleep—we come to a small cottage. As luck would have it, a clothesline spreads across the front of the house, clothes whipping from it. We crouch down low behind a rock and watch the cottage for a few minutes.

  “Are we really going to steal clothes?” Felicity says.

  “Of course.”

  Felicity shrugs. After what she’s been through, stealing clothes must seem like nothing. Anyway, we can’t approach our destination naked. I reckon my reception is going to be frosty enough without adding that into the mix.

  “Wait here,” I say, rising from the rock.

  The cottage is empty. I creep up to the clothesline and snatch two pairs of pants and two shirts. I return as quickly as I can and hand a shirt and pants to Felicity. She pulls it over her head and pulls the pants on. I can’t help but laugh. She looks tiny in the oversized shirt and the MC Hammer pants.

  “They keep falling down,” she says, ignoring my laughter, tugging at the pants with her hand.

  “Hang on.” I go to the washing line, find a woman’s scarf, and return to the rock. I fold it over and then wave to Felicity. “Come here.”

  She stands up next to me. I loop the folded scarf through the belt holes and then tie it tightly around her waist. Then I lean down and fold up the pant legs around her ankles.

  “Better than naked,” I say.

  “Barely.” But she’s smiling. Despite everything, she’s smiling.

  “Let’s get out of here before trouble starts,” I say.

  We leave the cottage behind and make toward our destination: the cottage at the foot of the hill.

  He couldn’t have picked a better place for leaving the life, that’s for sure. It’s in the middle of nowhere. No, it’s even more hidden than that. It’s like the Middle of Nowhere had a baby with Where the Hell Are We and spawned this stretch of French countryside. When I boarded the yacht, I knew we’d be coming close to this part of the shore. I guess fate or luck or God wanted us to meet again.

  “Do you have a plan?” Felicity asks me, when the sun is almost at midmorning point, slanting down its relentless light.

  I turn to her with a wry smile. “I had a plan,” I say. “My plan was to play our roles until the yacht landed and take you back to the States without any suspicion whatsoever. That fat idiot Barinov ruined that. Now I have a new plan. A backup plan of sorts. But I’m not sure how well it’s going to go.”

  She touches my arm. “You saved my life, Roma.”

  “I did.” I don’t look at her. I stare straight ahead. I don’t do too well with affection, never have.

  She moves her hand from my arm and touches my face, turns my gaze to hers. Without discussing it, we stop walking. She looks so damn cute in her massive clothes, like it’s the morning after and she’s wearing my clothes, like we’re not out here but back home, in my apartment, and she’s about to ask me how many rashers of bacon I’d like.

  “What?” I ask.

  My voice comes out snappish. I don’t mean it to. But being this close to a woman is so far out of my comfort zone I never dreamed it’d ever happen. I’d never let it happen. Quick, hungry embraces, sure . . . animal rutting . . . but this (whatever this is) . . . hell, no.

  “You saved my life,” she repeats. “If not for you . . .” Her shoulders tremble.

  Without thinking—if I think about it, I’ll freeze—I open my arms and embrace her, bringing her close to my chest. Remember who you are, remember who she is. Mr. Black’s voice again, chiding me. I ignore him and hold Felicity close to me, her cheek resting against my chest. She grips my back with desperate hands, digging her fingernails in, as if she’s scared I’ll float away. After all, I’m her only lifeline against the Russians. I feel something I haven’t felt for as long as I can remember: guilt. Hot, stabbing guilt. Guilt that I’m misleading her. But it’s more complicated than that, isn’t it? If I really only cared about the job, I would’ve let Barinov rape her. I wouldn’t have questioned it. But I couldn’t. And not because of the job; it had nothing to do with the job. It was simply because I couldn’t bear the thought. Without even realizing it, I’ve started to think of Felicity as my woman. But not in the twisted, sickening way the men on the yacht think of their purchases as their women. No, it’s something else, something deeper. I think again of the kiss and my lips tingle with hunger for another.

  Felicity twists her head up. “Is something wrong?” she asks.

  “No,” I say. “Surprisingly, everything’s right. How about we buy one of these cottages and stay here forever?”

  She giggles. “Now, there’s an idea.”

  I release her and we continue on our way.

  Soon, we reach the cottage. It looks the same as all the others, a two-story squat brick-built building, the chief difference being the garden. Where the others are well-tended, this is overgrown, creepers and flowers and weeds spreading over the floor and the fence, ivy twisting up the brick of the house.

  “Okay,” I say, taking a deep breath. I’m nervous, I realize with a shock. Bona fide nervous. “You need to hide.” I point to the side of the fence, where a huge bush will obscure her from view. “There.”

  “Why?” Felicity asks. “Who’s in there?”

  “Someone who will either be very happy or very angry to see me. I can’t risk you being caught in the crossfire if it’s the latter.”

  “Are we in danger?” Felicity asks.

  “Yes,” I say honestly. “From the Russians, and . . .” From Mr. Black if he finds out what happened and maybe
from the man who owns this cottage. “. . . and from everything else,” I finish vaguely.

  Felicity nods. “I’ll hide,” she says. “But if you need help, I won’t stay hidden.”

  She’s so fiery, I think, a fresh wave of admiration and affection washing over me.

  “Okay.” I nod.

  She jogs to the bush and crouches down. I walk to the fence, heart pounding like a war drum in my mouth. I haven’t seen him since he quit the life, since he bowed out of bloodshed and murder and all the filth that goes along with that.